“Man cannot live without love. He remains a being that is incomprehensible for himself, his life is senseless, if love is not revealed to him.” – John Paul II
Although the world around me seemed to go totally bat-shit crazy (the older I get, the less I relate to our society – I think that’s normal… right?), I had one major professional let-down (a film role that I was sure I had locked but lost due to politics…) and that death/near death was rampant in my inner circle (my uncle died, my aunt died, my dog died, two family members almost died…), 2016 wound up being a solid year for me personally and professionally.
I grew a lot as a human being, got close to my family again, started seeing life in a new light, solidified my spiritual path (which sent me on pilgrimages and lots of diving into books and shit soaking in knowledge…) and switched gears (for the better) as to the man I want to be. I also finally started reaping the rewards of my hard work. Yeah it felt good and definitely gave me the moral boost I needed to keep digging deep and going for my goals no matter the cost. Amidst doing what I love (traveling, being in nature, training, hiking, kayaking, hanging with close friends aka family like Berge, Deke, Elaine etc.) here are my top moments of 2016!
So that’s pretty much it! I’m personally very excited for 2017! Professionally, I have EVA and THE PRIZE (two films that I will direct) that are heading in the right direction in terms of getting off the ground. Am also diving into HERETIC today, a screenplay that I am writing with Karim Chériguène (it started off as a short by Karim, one that was so damn good, that it begged to be a feature). Think Apocalypse Now but with Templars! Am very excited about that one and already have some production pieces locked in Spain for it. It’s my new passion project! Meaning I’ll kill myself to see it through.
I also anticipate in traveling further this year and establishing myself even more within the film biz. Lots of new cards were handed to me in 2016 and I’m gonna play them the best I can this year. No matter how it goes, I am now better equipped to deal with what goes down, which will make the process easier for me. I see hardships differently, take on obstacles differently and view life as a whole differently. Get in the ring 2017! You’re mine.
After the cluster-fucks that were the end of 2009 and the whole of 2010 (aka the rebuild myself year) in terms of my personal life going to shit (which of course affected my professional life), it was great to get back in the swings of things come 2011 and that good joo-joo thankfully continued in 2012. Yes I had a pretty good year. I upped my sport intake and did more 4 wheeler, sea-doo, hiking, cross country skiing, downhill skiing, snowmobiling and kayaking then usual. I also took an overdue vacation. Me, a cabin, a lake, a book, screenwriting, a kayak, all good. I got to travel lots too (one of my fav things to do, I feel so lucky that I am able to), see some good fights live (GSP, Bute), see some Habs hockey, before that damn lock-out (all good, I saved some money for more traveling – thanks NHL) and made some head-way professionally.
I discovered new things about myself as well. It’s like I always say, you can’t evolve unless you recognize, make peace with and work on your own faults. I am good at that, pointing the finger at myself as opposed to others. This year I realized that I have a tendency to be too hard on people. Too black and white. To quick to drop the axe. So it’s something I am now working on. Self awareness is the first step. I also let pressure get to me for the first time on a set but again, managed to calm the fuck down and overcame it. That was a first and now I know how to deal with it. What else… oh yeah, my place flooded. You haven’t lived till you’ve seen turds floating in your living room. I almost lost it there, for obvious reasons but kept it together. Actually, that’s one of my new assets, I am now able to keep my cool way more than I used to. I surprised myself this year. I usually have a short fuse, but showed mucho patience in dire situations. Ahhh the advantages of growing as a person.
Now, although I am going through a end of the year jinx at the moment (it rarely fails, life always vomits on me in December for some reason, as my Grandma used to say, God bless her soul: “Encore Jesus”), I tried my utmost best to steer the wayward ship in the right direction, it didn’t work and it is now out of my hands. Am praying it works itself out. Am trying for it to not affect me too much emotionally and ruin my Holidays. A bit tough. Doing my best. But I”ll be damned if I let this end of the year BS tarnish what was a WELL EARNED positive year for me. Won’t happen! So with that out of the way, here are my personal fav moments of 2012 in NO particular order.
I am excited for 2013 (even though the film market is shit right now and it’s scary for peeps working in the Indie film scene in terms of MAKING MONEY). I just founded my production company BRUISE PRODUCTIONS, I already have a first project in the works (DAY OF BLOOD by Gonzalo Lopez) and I will continue to build on and learn more via what I have achieved thus far. I also have other projects and acting gigs up in the air, lets see where they land. Also it looks like I’ll be seeing lots of LA next year. But hey, nothing is done, till it’s done.
Ya know, I may bitch and moan now and again and yes I basically still sleep in an office (by choice), but you know what, I still love my life. I have great friends, I travel the world, I get lots of opportunities and my work makes me happy. Even when shit doesn’t go as planned and spits in my face. the payoff makes it all worth it. I can’t really complain. This is what I wanted, and I got it. Am doing what I love, am making a living, what else is there?Am looking forward in challenging myself even further in 2013! Onward and forward mofos and mofettes!
1- Did people enjoy my films?Yes. Deaden in particular seemed to have hit the spot (nobody left the screening, everybody stayed for the QNA, heard only good things).
2- Was there a drunken arm wrestling match?Oh yeah! “see below”
3- Did I make new friends? Shawn and Jason, aka the Basement boys, Skew director Sevé Schelenz and Fest chairman Mark Wallin (long live Twin Peaks and Kubrick)are all on my class-act list; so a winner here. PS: Special shout-out to Matt for enduring my badgering. You’re a champ!
4- Did I wind up in jail?No! That’s a good thing!
5- Did I meet AITH fans? Yes, and thanks to everybody that showed up, bought me beers and drove for like 3 hours to be there!
Other highlights were: doing a live TV interview (was great to see the Dead Shadows teaser play on TV), Habs winning over the Canucks (he he he) and finding my ugly mug in the morning paper. So all in all it went well and I was happy to give the genre section of the Fest a healthy kick in the ass for its debut! Hope Dark Fest continues for years to come. Again a big thank you for having me! Here are a couple of pics from my trip for those who care (Mom?)
Am happy to report that I will be a guest at the inaugural of the Dark Fest festival in Kamloops, Canada. The fest is streamlined by Jason and Shawn, co-hosts of 92.5FM CFBX Kamloops’ review show Film Reviews from the Basement. I’ll be there to show some of my past work (The Red Hours and Deaden) and a preview of David Cholewa’s Dead Shadows (next film I star in). I will also do a QNA and I’ll be bringing some free schwag to give away. Looking forward to it! NOTE TO SELF: Kamloops looks like a great place to snowmobile… if I have the time, will try to squeeze in a swift run 🙂